Wednesday, March 29, 2006

i'm thinking about...

this song:

a friend assures me, "it's all or nothing."
i am not worried
i am not overly concerned
my friend implores me, "for one time only,
make an exception." i am not worried.
wrap her up in a package of lies
send her off to a coconut island
i am not worried i am not overly concerned
with the state of my emotion
"oh," she says, "you're changing."
but we're always changing

it does not bother me to say this isn't love
because if you don't want to talk about it than it isn't love
and i gues i'm going to have to live with that
but i'm sure there's something in a shade of grey,
something in between,
and i can always change my name
if that's what you mean

my friend assures me, "it's all or nothing."
but i am not really worried i am not overly concerned
you try to tell yourself the things you try to tell yourself
to make yourself forget
i am not worried
"if it's love," she said, "then we're going to have to think about the consequences."
she can't stop shaking
i can't stop touching her and...
this time when kindness falls like rain
it washes her away and anna begins to change her mind
"these seconds when i'm shaking leave me shuddering for days," she says
and i'm not ready for this sort of thing

but i'm not going to break and i'm not going to worry about it anymore
i'm not going to bend, and i'm not going to break and i'm not going to worry about it anymore

it seems like i should say "as long as this is love..."
but it's not all that easy, so maybe i should
snap her up in a butterfly net, pin her down on a photograph album
i am not worried
i've done this sort of thing before
but then i start to think about the consequences
because i don't get no sleep in a quiet room and...

this time when kindness falls like rain
it washes me away and anna begins to change my mind
and every time she sneezes i believe it's love and
oh lord, i'm not ready for this sort of thing

she's talking in her sleep
it's keeping me awake and anna begins to toss and turn
and every word is nonsense but i understand and
oh lord, i'm not ready for this sort of thing

her kindness bangs a gong
it's moving me along and anna begins to fade away
it's chasing me away
she disappears and
oh lord, i'm not ready for this sort of thing


need i say more?

3 Comments:

Blogger suicideNoDiet said...

So, i can remember laying awake in my bed, in california watching the fan on the cieling make its usual circular motion and listening to this song and wondering nothing impaticular. The repeat button on my cd player was not only dangerous, but somewhat calming.

and sometimes I feel, "I need a raincoat."

12:52 AM  
Blogger tiffany said...

i used to listen to 'alien' by bush over and over again while i slept.
and also 'a warm place' by NIN.

oh, to be 17 and full of such emotion again...

2:11 AM  
Blogger David said...

I love Anna Begins. It's an interesting love song. Hard to work out exactly the true feelings of the parties. Which is like love I guess. I never know exacly what's going on when I'm in love..

2:23 AM  

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